been going thru some things with my girl.
not gonna lie, not looking good for her.
i feel so mad that she won't listen, but at the same time, i don't wanna give her up cause i know what she's going thru. i just wished she knew that she's not alone.
she's upset at the fact she's unemployed, nobody loves her, she hates being by herself when she's at home and that everybody hate her for some reason.
1: don't blame yourself, Blame the economy. it's Hard of course to find a job, i'm having trouble myself and i can think of 5 to 20 people who are in the same situation. this economy is the reason why people like her and myself are not able to get a job.hell, my brother is having a hard time as well as her and myself.
2 & 4: NOBODY HATES HER. things that she does (like *stuff* she uses..) is maybe the real reasons she has problem socializing. i know what's like myself. in fact, it took me YEARS to finally realize what i do wrong. that's why i have friends now. i have similar conditions that she faces myself. and i was able to overcome them on my own. had it not for that, i wouldn'tr have been able to be who i am today. i'm still learning as well. nobody's perfect.
3: It's not the end of the world being by yourself. i have to deal with it all the time. make yourself useful and productive if you have to. do a webchat. call a person on your cell. do more sketches. fill out an online job application. something. most of the time she's alone i try my HARDEST to try and either see her or call her. she just needs to realize that not everybody has the freetime as one may think.
and these are just some of the reasons why she feels the only way she can deal with being alone and such is by doing "stuff"( out of privacy i won't mention what it is, but you can take a wild guess..)
i just want her to know that there are people who care for her, and that she's not alone, the troubles she is going thru are what happens to EVERYBODY.
and if she still feels that no body cares for her, i will still tell her that At least I CARE.
if your reading this and you know her or at least know what i mean, please, show her that you care at least if you can. i'm not asking much, just show her that she has people who will care for her.and that she's not alone. if you want to help, let me know.
until i get this situations, unfortunately, i have to put a hiatus on ALL my requests and current projects until i get this taken care of. i want to fix this before i continue perusing my music and art.
i'm sorry for this last minute change of things. but i feel that there are things i have to try to do in order to make this relationship solidify-able.
i hope all my freinds and fans understand this and as soon as things change and get better, i will return as soon as possible.