Have you ever gotten the same advice from people over and over again, and even when you take it and it doesnt work you end up getting the same advice still over and over?
thats enough to make you mad, Yes?
lash out even?
that was me yesterday.
i got angry at some of my friends who gave me the same spoon fed advice after i have had weeks of depression dealing with being single again for 7 years.
and whats worse is that mostly
i'm tired of people giving me the same cookie cutter advice on dating.
"Pleanty of Fish in the sea"
"Wait for the moment, youre time will come"
"go to a bar"
"go to a Con"
"Go to a Dating site"
"try a Dating app (i.e. Tinder)"
"She has't seen you yet."
"go to a concert"
"Change who you are and maybe she will come to you"
"Focus on yourself"
it's enough to make me mad all the time. the moment i hear those words from any of these it pisses me off.
they tell me The same answers after i say this usually...
"I understand that but it's the truth. I know it's irritating and you're tired of hearing it but you do need to love yourself, Raijphinai"
But for how long? HOW LONG? i love myself so much i don't feel it's fair to love myself when someone else deserves it as muchas i do myself!
it's just i've done all these things. especially loving myself. im running out of metaphorical cups to pour my love overflowing in, because i have to keep doing it and it's getting to be too much.
it's just i've done all these things. especially loving myself.
i just want a friend who is willing to be spontaneus on helping me in anything New.
im not asking anyone to MAKE me a Girlfriend, but at least help me in a new way to get a woman's attention. Hell, i even played the "be an assertive asshole" card.
I had an arguement with two friends because they were more upset with me on the fact I was Being Rude and Angry in defense to them when they were being friends with me and that i had no right to act that way, more or less. and yet they don't notice that im HURT. i'm SAD. i'm ALONE. to the point if i hear the same old dribble im going to be upset.
i wouldn't be mad or rude to people if people didn't give me the same advice.
and don't forget optimism.
yes. im alive.
im less hurt from being in a relationship.
women are evil or jerks sometimes
you doging a bullet.
it's better than being single.
and finally, the one i hate the most...
"well at least you have your success in Photography"
what the FUCK does that have to do with relationships? i would love to have a girlfriend who supported my work and be my vessel in my work. that would be 10x better than hiring any plain Jane model.
I mean i once stated that i'm willing to help a woman see the beauty in herself that my career could evolve her into a model for all i know cause of my success. that i would shoot with her day or night. that i would take her all around the world with me. I have so many dreams it's rediculous.
i know my autism and depression and Anxiety can't be an excuse either, but GODDAMN i'm just so sick of those same cards being dealt with me.
I'm tired of the fact no matter how much i love and change myself i don't get noticed, even when im not asking for it.
i don't want someone to MAKE me a girlfriend either, like for god's sake it's rediculous to ask that.
not asking for sympathy either.
but i am asking for better advice. or something more spontaneus.
something random that i can take to the next level. and that maybe it can work out for me.
*Jurai or Die*