Saturday, December 29, 2012

PLEASE READ WOMEN.

this is from my friend Jessica Pounds - 
"I don't mind awareness posts and articles about 

a lot of things. But I think sometimes things 

are blown out of proportion. Some women like to 

share how they've been "victimized", and there 

are many cases where it actually is true. I know 

some. I think sometimes though, it's taken too 

far and small things that aren't actually 

supposed to be grouped with actual victimization 

are grouped in anyway.

But, as someone that has problems with both 

genders sometimes, the people who want to expand 

the definitions into areas that really don't fit 

forget what it's like on the other side. I've 

seen and known just as many (or more) guys hurt 

or victimized by women, but because they're a 

guy, their opinion isn't heard or it's 

"irrelevant". "Guys don't talk about their 

feelings." Guys can be at fault in many things, 

but women have their own ways. I have seen 

several examples of female "I'm right, you're 

wrong" attitudes that continue regardless of 

what the man says.

If that attitude continues into the area of 

equality or rights, at this rate, eventually 

female rights will try to take over male rights. 

If you really want equality, both sides need to 

realize they are equally hurt. Sure, guys can be 

jerks. But so can women. What the guys do just 

gets more publicity. Why? You hear about every 

kind of abuse that men can do to women, but when 

a woman is emotionally or mentally abusing a 

man, the man just needs to suck it up, according 

to the women. How many times do you hear a woman 

tell another that she needs to shut up because 

her man is right? Not often. So many men have 

been hurt emotionally by careless or uncaring 

girls, but what's done for them? Nothing. What's 

done for the women? Anything that can be pulled 

out of people with the right spokespeople.

I'm sorry women, but yes, I understand a lot of 

you may have been hurt. But don't take things 

too far and overthink it. Generally men don't 

read into things as deeply as you do, so if they 

see an argument that you took into irrelevant 

areas, they should be upset. And, don't forget 

about the men out there who try to do everything 

and get heartbreak and emotional scars in 

return. I'm guilty of causing a few scars 

myself, and I'm not proud of it. I've been a 

victim of some things from both genders, and 

some left scars I didn't really even realize 

were there. However, I focus on letting go of 

those things, not making either gender into 

something horrible and blowing things out of 

proportion.

(And please don't say that persistence on the 

guys' part is rape even when there's nothing 

physical or abusive about it. Some guys have to 

be persistent to even have a chance with a girl, 

but of course in movies, the guys are normally 

cute or sexy or whatever. Girls have known how 

annoying it can be when a guy isn't interested 

in them. They may think no one looks at them, 

when the ones who do, they won't even consider. 

So in order to even have a chance, if the guy is 

ABLE to muster enough confidence, he's probably 

going to need a lot of persistence to get 

anywhere at all, sometimes even to get just 

friendship.)

I may not be very girly most of the time, but 

I'm still female. I actually probably align more 

with guys' thinking, because I really don't 

understand girls. What I DO understand, though, 

is that equality doesn't just involve the good 

things. It also includes realizing that both 

genders have made mistakes, and that you can't 

blame the whole gender for some things, though 

it is VERY tempting, especially when many of one 

gender tend to do one thing. What about the 

women who are stubbornly right and won't accept 

the man's point of view? It happens in TV and 

movies and it happens in real life too. Who will 

you blame?

Women, I understand some of you are actual 

victims. But some noisy ones just take it too 

far, and so many times I've seen just as many 

guys hurt by women. If those guys aren't able to 

speak up, then I will speak up for them, because 

sometimes it takes a woman to say these things. 

Why? The same reason they're hurt. The women 

that hurt them wouldn't listen. (Sorry to the 

one friend who I saw the article in question 

from, but honestly, I think the article is 

overblown. I was actually more in agreeance with 

the comments I saw on the article page, because 

several people were thinking of both sides.)" 

Why MY Music Maybe Rare at times...


Many of you who respect me as a producer always wondered why i never do a fully self-produced project of my own, you may have not told me or  asked me, but i feel some of you who loved my production would always wondered that in thought. as a fellow musician, i feel my production is not for everybody, and while some artists who have never used my worked have respected and support my work still, i still appreciate that thought as well. it's always a hit or miss when a producer works on beats for other artists who have a certain style you are not accustomed to. in some points many of you artists have never used my work, but you respect and support my craft, and i do respect that.
my music is not for everyone. nor is my beats. i wont lie. i feel only certain people who understand my mentality of my craft can use them. no disrespect for those who love my work and never used them, but i wont lie, some producers are tailored to specific type of artists. in this case, artists like MIKEFLY, Akil Hikari, And some of my own artists. sometimes i make beats for my own amusement, not to be used by others, no lie, but just for the sake of being able to.

i want my production to be a rare thing, i want my production to be known for being made for the artists that know me as an artist first and producer second, so when you hear my production from another artist, the reaction is, "WOW, i didnt know he Made beats!"
That is the reaction i want. why you ask? because there are artists today that are known for having best of both worlds and are either successful, or stuck in the same route. Charles Hamilton proved that you can do both, but there are more artists who have done that before him, Timbaland, Pharrell Williams, And whether you hate him or not, Swizz Beatz is trying.

Kid Cudi is a new example, He was only known for his lyrics and his artistic style, now he's expanding his talents, Acting, Directing, And Even Producing. it's people like him is why i strive to expand my talents to a rare form. cause every thinks they are good in what they can accomplish of it all, and some are good, (in this case, Cudi)

Another example is Ryan Leslie & prince. They have done it for the large and longevity that they have expanded their own empires, yet people didn't know of their  capabilities, people didn't know Ryan Leslie had talent other than producing til after Cassie came out. And prince, Well it wasn't til after Purple Rain was made people realized he had beyond his own music abilities.


those people drive me to do what i do. and yet, they are half of the motivation i need at times to accomplish what i do. i can write music, and i can produce, but there are times i dont want to keep pursuing Hip Hop. No lie, it was actually not my first choice. i wanted to start a rock band. it's still on my to do list. and im not talking anything close to my music now. im talking a whole 360 of my current music.

so i suggest you get used to my current hip hop music, cause once the band is formed, i will be done with hip hop entirely. promise you that. (yes, im talking ala Kid Rock method except my shit isn't redneck or country, just straight rock shit.)

my Music Is Limited, yet memorable, hence why i dont want to make a full self produced solo project. at least not yet.
but during my last days in hip hop, it maybe done, you never know.
just be grateful for what im doing now, whether you rock my work or not.

*Jurai Or Die*

Monday, December 10, 2012

Delta Nexus: My Evolution.

Im happy the turnout of My second Album, "Yoku Masaki Vs. The World" and that it is Getting so Much Response from Fans throughout this year, i want to Personally Thank everyone who was involved in it again you made my sophomore project That Much better than My Flaky Debut. (which i'll admit, could have been better.)

now comes my evolution.

as you may have noticed, i Dont stop Grinding. And working.

Love.
Faith.
Peace.
Fate.

These things were on my mind While i was cotinuing to work on more and more music.
they have made me into a new person. a better person. a more clearer man.

a Delta NEXUS.

this is the focal point for my new album. to my art friends, if you can focus your work around theses things. and take it into consideration for art for the album.


here is one of the several covers for the album:


try to keep this in line for the artwork for the album. to the fans. BE PREPARED.
First single. TM77.

im back and im harder than ever Haters.


i will update more from there.

peace.

*Jurai Or Die*

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I'll be Back...

But in the meantime, Check me Here:

http://Flavors.me/YokuMasaki
http://YokuMasaki.bandcamp.com
http://Soundcloud.com/Yoku-Masaki
http://Soundcloud.com/Yokumasakiproductions
http://twitter.com/YokuMasaki

Stay Gold Ravers.

*Juraiordie*

Saturday, September 1, 2012

tale of a hopeless romantic

Ever since I was in two former relationships, I’ve had this urge to heal a girls heart, but everytime it seems I do, it always looks like I’m being obsessive, and its not that I shouldn’t, its just its a force of habit. If there was one woman out there in the world who knew me and would understand my feelings and would give me that acceptance, maybe they would receive my full heart as the reward. Everytime I’m alittle over friendly to my single female friends online, they think I’m treating them like I’m forcing a relationship when in reality I’m not even trying to have one with them. Then after that I explain it to them, they stop talking to me forever. I’m slowly feeling once again that love will no longer be in my life and feel that I should just quit all together. My friends even think I’m being obessive when I’m not trying to be. Losing some female friends suck in my eyes. And don’t give me the “fuck these h*es ” speech, cause it will come to a point being heartless won’t work, nor is it in my nature. So yeah, hence why I know I am truly utterly alone.

Monday, July 2, 2012

been awhile,,,,

it's been a minute right?
Ok, this maybe a quick post for those who follow me here only.

peep the video.

*Juraiordie*


Monday, April 30, 2012

Written in April 29th, 2012...

Yet another birthday post people. 
I've been going thru alot this year, heartbreak, lost of family, lots of inspiration, lots of revamping, and much. 
every year i always ask people to not only never forget me and what i have done, (no YOLO shit) but this year, i'm sure everyone will already live their lives.

to my friends in the music game:
thank you for being patient with me, in due time i will be back in my music faze. so bear with me. thanks for spreading the word of my name.

to my Close Friends,:
i am sorry i have been distant for the past few days, months, weeks, but know i'm continuing to be more stronger and more happier. if you ever showed me love and happiness, i appreciate it truly from the bottom of my heart. the old Yoku will return.

to the two women in my life who i had given my heart to:

Ryoko: i am glad we have each other's respect as friends, and i hope that you find the happiness that maybe i was not able to give you. and even though we are not together but continue to see each other, despite our past, i am glad you have been supportive of my future. that shows how much mature you are than what i had expected. thank you.

Sakuya: This is hard for me to write, because on one side, i am sad that we can not be together and the love apparently is gone, but on the other side, i am upset that you would betray our friendship. no matter how obsessive i seem to be, or annoying, you don't abandon people who have supported you no matter what when they are in a tough situation. that was childish of you to do, (yes, i have every right to say this.) even if i am not to be with you, we are supposed to have a solid friendship. and you are abusing it by completely giving me the cold shoulder. that is NOT the solution. as an adult, you are supposed to TALK about the problem, even if it's repeating. don't worry, i am not obsessing over you anymore, that ship has sailed, my heart is still in part for you, but i am not trapping you. (BTW, i know about you and David your new bf, good luck with that.) in my opinion, i didn't even get a happy birthday, and all i have done for you is not even right. you can act mature, but your not. and i guess leaving you alone is the only way you will see that. no matter how much intelligence you have. even your own friends know what you did to me was wrong, but all i can do is wish you the best of luck. don't worry, no blackmail shit or any of that other stuff. you wont be hearing from me. but know that you did hurt me now, and karma is always in my head. KNOW THIS. no more stalking, (even though i am NOT using a fake page for the record.) no more obsessiveness, no more overwhelming or entrapment as you want to make the excuse. know i have to let you go, until the opportunity comes around and shows you like my friends say, "that you lost the greatest thing in your life."


to everyone else, know this, i will be back to the original mode, and more music is on the way.
to those who wished me happy birthday, thank you. to those who either forgot,or intentionally didn't say anything, meh. no worries, you'll come around. they always do.

~Jurai Or Die~

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

A Letter To my Dreamgirl......

I'm a simple nerd. I don't have much to offer. I'm new to relationships.
I'm not rich in money, nor am I lavishing at times. Yes I have problems but i am Human. I can't promise you I will have a future with or without you, but I fight for you to make that happen. I can't make you happy, but I would like to be considered for me trying to make you happy. I don't know much about what to say and what not to say, I don't know what to do and not do when your upset and when you want to be alone.
I want you to feel happy, to feel compassionate,and even feel sexy at times, I want you to know that when your with me,you will be always on my mind, every day you wake up, every night you fall asleep. Know I will write songs about you, draw pictures of your beauty, write poems of our love, dream of you, serenade with you, make you feel like your the most important woman in the world to me, Even when you want time to yourself. Know that I want to enjoy every text we give each other, every phone call we have, late night calls we give each other, taking about random things, such as your family, friends, your hometown, your job, even about things that we have in common, like anime, video games, comic books, movies, anything. Know when your gone with friends, I will promise to always be jealous of any man because I want you to know that no man can make you feel the way I do. When you fight with me, I will always be wrong. When we cry, I will always feel compassionate, when your sad, know I will always want to talk to you to understand. I have done all the adventuring I have done, had my fun by myself, I am in the position I want to have fun with you in life. I choose you to make me motivated. To keep me happy, to make me strong. I am happy by myself and with friends, trust me, I love myself, but you can make me feel even more loved. I want that from you. We can go slow in just get to know each other, but I want the chance. I'm not asking for you to love me now, I'm asking for the opportunity to maybe in the future. If you give me the chance. I would like to get to know you, and make you happy, make you feel like the special girl you should always feel. We can just  go from there, i don't mind taking it slow as long as i am given a chance. If your reading this, I just want that chance. So if your interested in my offer, seriously tell me.
This is not an act of desperation, but a bold statement of confidence.
I hope to have that chance.

Thank you,
Raijphinai "Yoku Masaki" Harris

Monday, April 9, 2012

Recovery is almost over...

While its been another while for me to be online thru this blog, I'm in the process of finally feeling like myself again. Its crazy how one person can make me feel obsessive over them when I needed to realize that patience is what I need.
While me and sakuya seem more distant now because she feels maybe I'm not important or other reasons is up to her, but she knows I won't change in feelings for her, and even though its over between us, I still will keep her close as a friend. (For now anyway.) For now I have been keeping up to date with the music.
First off, I have release the first single for "Yoku vs. The world" my comeback album sequel to "the world according to Yoku." And I have to admit, its needed. This project will focus more on my writing skills so not much production will be done by me. (Shouts to DJ sonicfreak for the beat!) Here is the link:

http://soundcloud.com/yoku-the-nightmare/ramona

 Enjoy. Spread the word. And get ready fall next year.
Also I will be reworking some projects I needed to finish including the heavy anticipated project with Melvin Burch. "Tales of lawndale" will now be in motion. Thank you melvin for being patient with me. And keeping me in check. I won't let you down fam.
Also I released the single to Utada Ultimatum 3. I have not confirmed a release date yet. So stay tuned til
then.
http://soundcloud.com/yoku-the-nightmare/tuesday

Also I have started my kickstarter page.

http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1348398224/help-create-the-rave

You know what to do.
Spread the word. Donate. Help me out.

Remember to check my youtube. My twitter (http://www.twitter.com/yokumasaki) my new facebook (http://www.facebook.com/WhoIsYokuMasaki) and also follow me on instagram, soundcloud, and more. Til then stay tuned.
~Jurai Or Die~

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

EMOtion.... My Closure...

Something i wrote....

"Do I deserve to be here? To exist in this world? Am I just a test from god saying that I shoule be put under a looking glass to be mocked? A chokehold meant to not loved, or adored, or cared? Or should I deserved to be ignored? Is this existence of mine ment to no longer be gain recognition? Or just passed on like it never existed? Like another pasing fade unless something that is important to one that does not care needs something and then is ignored once again?. Should I have to follow and endless cycle of remaining a cellophane despite my unique of a name? Am I doomed to be passed by without a glance no longer? Should I bleed till nothing left to trickle and empty? Will I still be passed by? If my flesh burned, do I deserve to die? If I have hurt one’s heart, should I deserve to be treated like shit? Is it what I deserved from either one or all? I wonder. The days I say I should not exist, when one or many people don’t realize their ability to ignore is making it happen more and more. Its because of this, my request of death forever exists."

if you ever have time, Please listen.



Will stop bugging you since i realize it's getting annoying. plus realized you don't like my pages and posts anymore.

-Yoku

Monday, February 20, 2012

Heartbreak and Recovery...

As many of you may not have known, my "Dating Relationship" with "Sakuya" was ended on Valentine's Day.
if your friends with me on facebook, you may have seen the mental damage it left me, if not, don't bother. don't like bringing it up at times.
in any case i did release #VampireLife the same day, (how ironic i did the project for her and it was now considered a waste.)
and while it turned out as i hoped, it seemed like more of a waste of the time since she ended it with me.
I loved her too much, and became too obsesssive of her.
i don't hate her, i just wished i got another chance.
but i can't.
so with that i took it pretty hard for a few days. and with the last week, i started writing again. funny enoough, Melvin Burch released a couple of instrumental gems and one caught my eye.
wrote the song in about two days.

Now about the song..

EMOtion.


While i did do #Vampirelife in honor of my former Beloved, "EMOtion" does directly relate to her, the only difference is that it deals with the current aftermath i have to deal with because of ending our "dating". i won't go into detail about it cause it's private in some ways. Now i don't know if she listened to #VL , but i don't think she would want to listen to "EMOtion" due to the negative and emotional expression i put into it. but in a way, i do feel somehow she should hear it. i'm confused on wheither or not she should. (many of you i know say that i SHOULD let her hear it, lol) but i will come to that desicion when i complete recording it.
i felt like this record had to be made to make a fitting closure of our "dating" (we technically never had a relationship, because we were "trying things". So that's why it was also never public.) i don't want to bring up more on it, but for those who i feel should hear it will. (Brittany, you being the first.) but i will let you know.
i actually to be honest never expected to go back to the music so soon, cause while we talked, she was my motivation for my music. if it was not for her, "TWATYM" & #VL would have never seen the light of day. Deadass.

To Sakuya, i know you said we should not talk of it, but i had to do the record in order to gain closure. i'm glad we are still friends at least. but know i will let you go, but i still will keep a small part of you near me. cause your strength gave me strength. thank you.

#EMOtion By Yoku Masaki Produced By Melvin Burch.
coming Friday.

*Jurai Or Die*







Friday, January 6, 2012

2012... Year Of Yoku





Man, it's been awhile back on my blog hasn't it?
Well Time to get you followers up to speed.
As you may know or not, I am no longer going by the name of "R.H.The Nightmare"
it seems many people know me more for my other alias than that one, so from now on, i am just, "YOKU MASAKI"
i have also made a new Facebook And Twitter to follow me in
(http://twitter.com/YokuMasaki)
(http://facebook.com/WhoIsYokuMasaki)
also I am at work on a few new projects for this year, but will not be maxing out on releases due to school and money complications.
1.) WTF? Why's That fresh? - A Beattape that was made last year that will be my last for 2011 and for awhile til i get the necessary inspiration. will be out later January.
2.) Ghost Within The Machine - A original Project for me and complexx, but he decided to drop out of it for necessary reasons, now it will be my first compilation album, with songs sampling the "Ghost in The Shell" movies and shows. coming later this year hopefully spring.
3.) #VampireLife - A concept 6 Track EP telling the story of a insomniac vampire Musician who falls in love with a schizophrenic poetry writing Gothic Lolita princess who then get married in a graveyard during the day of the rising dead. will featuring appearances from my lady and Shyce Mayne. hopefully will be released Valentine's Day.
4.) Masterball Jukebox 3 - the third of a Pokemon sampled project, except this will be a compilation EP. the first two were beattapes. coming soon this spring. (shouts to the League)
5.) and finally I will start working on the Sequel for "The World According to Yoku Masaki" it will be called,
"Yoku Masaki Vs. The World."
it will deal with me recording over other artists Records, like a concept remix album
other than that, i have to figure out my money situations, also "The R.A.V.E." and "Kindred Spiritz" are still going to be developed, just on the back burner now.
til then follow me there and all my links as well.
enjoy 2012 while you can.
*Jurai Or Die*

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