Monday, April 30, 2012

Written in April 29th, 2012...

Yet another birthday post people. 
I've been going thru alot this year, heartbreak, lost of family, lots of inspiration, lots of revamping, and much. 
every year i always ask people to not only never forget me and what i have done, (no YOLO shit) but this year, i'm sure everyone will already live their lives.

to my friends in the music game:
thank you for being patient with me, in due time i will be back in my music faze. so bear with me. thanks for spreading the word of my name.

to my Close Friends,:
i am sorry i have been distant for the past few days, months, weeks, but know i'm continuing to be more stronger and more happier. if you ever showed me love and happiness, i appreciate it truly from the bottom of my heart. the old Yoku will return.

to the two women in my life who i had given my heart to:

Ryoko: i am glad we have each other's respect as friends, and i hope that you find the happiness that maybe i was not able to give you. and even though we are not together but continue to see each other, despite our past, i am glad you have been supportive of my future. that shows how much mature you are than what i had expected. thank you.

Sakuya: This is hard for me to write, because on one side, i am sad that we can not be together and the love apparently is gone, but on the other side, i am upset that you would betray our friendship. no matter how obsessive i seem to be, or annoying, you don't abandon people who have supported you no matter what when they are in a tough situation. that was childish of you to do, (yes, i have every right to say this.) even if i am not to be with you, we are supposed to have a solid friendship. and you are abusing it by completely giving me the cold shoulder. that is NOT the solution. as an adult, you are supposed to TALK about the problem, even if it's repeating. don't worry, i am not obsessing over you anymore, that ship has sailed, my heart is still in part for you, but i am not trapping you. (BTW, i know about you and David your new bf, good luck with that.) in my opinion, i didn't even get a happy birthday, and all i have done for you is not even right. you can act mature, but your not. and i guess leaving you alone is the only way you will see that. no matter how much intelligence you have. even your own friends know what you did to me was wrong, but all i can do is wish you the best of luck. don't worry, no blackmail shit or any of that other stuff. you wont be hearing from me. but know that you did hurt me now, and karma is always in my head. KNOW THIS. no more stalking, (even though i am NOT using a fake page for the record.) no more obsessiveness, no more overwhelming or entrapment as you want to make the excuse. know i have to let you go, until the opportunity comes around and shows you like my friends say, "that you lost the greatest thing in your life."

to everyone else, know this, i will be back to the original mode, and more music is on the way.
to those who wished me happy birthday, thank you. to those who either forgot,or intentionally didn't say anything, meh. no worries, you'll come around. they always do.

~Jurai Or Die~

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