EMOtion.... My Closure...

Something i wrote....

"Do I deserve to be here? To exist in this world? Am I just a test from god saying that I shoule be put under a looking glass to be mocked? A chokehold meant to not loved, or adored, or cared? Or should I deserved to be ignored? Is this existence of mine ment to no longer be gain recognition? Or just passed on like it never existed? Like another pasing fade unless something that is important to one that does not care needs something and then is ignored once again?. Should I have to follow and endless cycle of remaining a cellophane despite my unique of a name? Am I doomed to be passed by without a glance no longer? Should I bleed till nothing left to trickle and empty? Will I still be passed by? If my flesh burned, do I deserve to die? If I have hurt one’s heart, should I deserve to be treated like shit? Is it what I deserved from either one or all? I wonder. The days I say I should not exist, when one or many people don’t realize their ability to ignore is making it happen more and more. Its because of this, my request of death forever exists."

if you ever have time, Please listen.



Will stop bugging you since i realize it's getting annoying. plus realized you don't like my pages and posts anymore.

-Yoku

Heartbreak and Recovery...

As many of you may not have known, my "Dating Relationship" with "Sakuya" was ended on Valentine's Day.

if your friends with me on facebook, you may have seen the mental damage it left me, if not, don't bother. don't like bringing it up at times.

in any case i did release #VampireLife the same day, (how ironic i did the project for her and it was now considered a waste.)

and while it turned out as i hoped, it seemed like more of a waste of the time since she ended it with me.

I loved her too much, and became too obsesssive of her.

i don't hate her, i just wished i got another chance.

but i can't.

so with that i took it pretty hard for a few days. and with the last week, i started writing again. funny enoough, Melvin Burch released a couple of instrumental gems and one caught my eye.

wrote the song in about two days.

Now about the song..

EMOtion.

While i did do #Vampirelife in honor of my former Beloved, "EMOtion" does directly relate to her, the only difference is that it deals with the current aftermath i have to deal with because of ending our "dating". i won't go into detail about it cause it's private in some ways. Now i don't know if she listened to #VL , but i don't think she would want to listen to "EMOtion" due to the negative and emotional expression i put into it. but in a way, i do feel somehow she should hear it. i'm confused on wheither or not she should. (many of you i know say that i SHOULD let her hear it, lol) but i will come to that desicion when i complete recording it.

i felt like this record had to be made to make a fitting closure of our "dating" (we technically never had a relationship, because we were "trying things". So that's why it was also never public.) i don't want to bring up more on it, but for those who i feel should hear it will. (Brittany, you being the first.) but i will let you know.

i actually to be honest never expected to go back to the music so soon, cause while we talked, she was my motivation for my music. if it was not for her, "TWATYM" & #VL would have never seen the light of day. Deadass.

To Sakuya, i know you said we should not talk of it, but i had to do the record in order to gain closure. i'm glad we are still friends at least. but know i will let you go, but i still will keep a small part of you near me. cause your strength gave me strength. thank you.

#EMOtion By Yoku Masaki Produced By Melvin Burch.

coming Friday.

*Jurai Or Die*

2012... Year Of Yoku

Man, it's been awhile back on my blog hasn't it?

Well Time to get you followers up to speed.

As you may know or not, I am no longer going by the name of "R.H.The Nightmare"

it seems many people know me more for my other alias than that one, so from now on, i am just, "YOKU MASAKI"

i have also made a new Facebook And Twitter to follow me in

(http://twitter.com/YokuMasaki)

(http://facebook.com/WhoIsYokuMasaki)

also I am at work on a few new projects for this year, but will not be maxing out on releases due to school and money complications.

1.) WTF? Why's That fresh? - A Beattape that was made last year that will be my last for 2011 and for awhile til i get the necessary inspiration. will be out later January.

2.) Ghost Within The Machine - A original Project for me and complexx, but he decided to drop out of it for necessary reasons, now it will be my first compilation album, with songs sampling the "Ghost in The Shell" movies and shows. coming later this year hopefully spring.

3.) #VampireLife - A concept 6 Track EP telling the story of a insomniac vampire Musician who falls in love with a schizophrenic poetry writing Gothic Lolita princess who then get married in a graveyard during the day of the rising dead. will featuring appearances from my lady and Shyce Mayne. hopefully will be released Valentine's Day.

4.) Masterball Jukebox 3 - the third of a Pokemon sampled project, except this will be a compilation EP. the first two were beattapes. coming soon this spring. (shouts to the League)

5.) and finally I will start working on the Sequel for "The World According to Yoku Masaki" it will be called,

"Yoku Masaki Vs. The World."

it will deal with me recording over other artists Records, like a concept remix album

other than that, i have to figure out my money situations, also "The R.A.V.E." and "Kindred Spiritz" are still going to be developed, just on the back burner now.

til then follow me there and all my links as well.

enjoy 2012 while you can.

*Jurai Or Die*

THE WORLD ACCORDING TO YOKU MASAKI

OUT Now.

Thank you for the love and support.

http://rhthenightmaremusic.bandcamp.com/album/the-world-according-to-yoku-masaki

*Jurai Or Die*

TOMORROW.

Well People. This is it.

The Moment I have been waiting for for 6 years.

"THE WORLD ACCORDING TO YOKU MASAKI"

finally drops. 

Stay tuned tomorrow.

*Jurai Or Die*

TWATYM Is Still Coming... singles 2 & 3 "MY Dreams" & "Nitto Flow"

Yo, was almost gonna forget posting them on here, but hell with it.
Here is the other singles for  "The World According To..."
The First Is "Nitto Flow" Featuring Mr. Halo the Artiste, a.k.a. DJ Halo/H2.
You May have known him for working with Charles Hamilton  in "StarCHaser Radio" and "Dope2Go", But I was given the Honor Of Recording a Track collab With Him.
(Again, Much Love to You On The Co-Sign Homie, Along With Melvin Burch)
Nitto Flow (Featuring Halo the Artiste) by R.H.The Nightmare

and Here is the second single, "My Dreams"

The Record will also be on The "Block Club" Compilation. (S/O to ShYce MaYne)
My Dreams by R.H.The Nightmare

From What it looks like, The Project will be released in 11.11.11, (odd right?) but it may change due to recording issues. otherwise, i am also confirmed to create, "THE UTADA ULTIMATUM 3". Shouts to Storm Watkins for the inspration, If you don't know about Meiko Kaji, GET TO KNOW.

Utada 2 Will be out later this month.

also after i release one more single, i will release for a limted time, "The Nightmare before christmas" EP with all 4 Singles and a Bonus Track for a Limited time. so be sure and stick around monday to get it.

Be Prepared.

*Jurai or Die*

INFATUATION...

Well, it looks like i finally Have a Legit single.
"Infatuation" was written for my first girlfriend, but the first verse was changed after i met my new love (who for the moment will be anonymous, but know she's real, and loves me so) she is going thru things and her artistic abilities made me even a better man, hopefully we will go thru a situation where we will finally see each other.

this originally was not to be the single, but showing her how much i love her, i had to release it. shouts to thelonious and the tastemakers.

here it is.
and this is only the BEGINNING.

Download LINK:

http://www.mediafire.com/?bunza3mh8vsrbvv

Get Ready.

i will have a OFFICIAL Release date For "The World According to Yoku"
coming soon.

also look for my other single "My Dreams" to be featured in BLOCK MUSIC Compilation Courtesy Of Shyce Mayne.

For now ride with this and give me feedback.
 Also here is The DEBUT Single For My project With Melvin Burch inspired By the Classic Cartoon series "Daria", "Tales of Lawndale EP" Coming Soon.

Sick Sad World [Prod. by Yoku Masaki] by Violet Baudelaire

LET'S GO.

*Jurai Or Die*